Updated: Jun 24, 2020
Hello, friends of The Rainbow Cloud Project! My name is Mary, or you can call me Mur, Murb, Mar, or if you’re my dad...Sister Mary Frances.
At first, when I was approached to participate in the #RainbowCloudStories I had MAJOR anxiety about it. What should I talk about? Who would read/listen? Who ACTUALLY wants to hear what you have to say? That’s been a constant in my life for as long as I remember: always caring what others would think.
When I was in high school, I was stuck between career paths I was passionate about- teaching and makeup artistry. I was at the time dating a guy who didn’t care what I did, as long as I didn’t move out of my small town. (Ladies-red flag!!) When it came time to choosing my future I was stuck between two music colleges! One that would keep me local and one that would send me literally ALL OVER THE WORLD. I knew in my heart that would make me happy. I applied AND got accepted, but kept that information to myself out of fear of rejection or worse.
My choir teacher put together a senior showcase night where she was revealing where each senior was going to go to college! My ex was sitting in the audience, and when he heard mine he walked out of the room. Instant anxiety. I knew his anger was one I didn’t want to mess with. He’d already had called me hurtful names, bashed my friends, hated on my family— attempting to separate me from the ones I loved! (...red flag!) I was dropped off by my friends and there was his car parked outside my house...waiting for me. I plopped my stuff inside and told my mom I would be back, and got in the car with him.
Once inside, I was showered with screams and profanities. “You’re NOTHING”. “How could YOU DO THIS TO ME?”. “I HATE YOU”. (RED FLAG!!!) Seatbelts unbuckled, he began to drive. Something I said made him slam on the brakes, flying my head straight towards the windshield. (!!!!!!) I lifted myself off the dashboard and saw the giant crack and splitting of glass. I couldn’t help but laugh. I couldn’t believe how tough my head was. I couldn’t believe how STRONG I WAS. I did that.
That’s when I decided enough was enough.
How could I let someone else’s opinions get in the way of MY happiness?
Since then, I’ve made many choices that made me happy no matter what anyone else thought! I got married outside in nature instead of a church like I was expected. I stayed in a long-distance relationship when my husband (then boyfriend) was deported. I bleached my entire head BECAUSE I FELT LIKE IT!!
More recently, I decided I wasn’t happy with my career. “But MARY! You’ve dedicated 8 years and thousands of $$$?! You can’t change your career path!!” Uhmmm. YES. I. CAN.
Once a music teacher, now a makeup artist. I am currently enrolled in a Makeup Artistry Academy to further my education. One day, I hope to be working in TV/Film but baby steps!!
I wanted to tell this story to inspire anyone who’s ever felt like someone told them they can’t do something. At the end of the day, you are your biggest advocate! You know what’s best for you! Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.️
With love from the loud,
Mary K with MFK MAKEUP